hi, i'm annalise.

I am a 22 year-old soul that enjoys writing, creating, and being entirely too hard on myself. I'm on a [bumpy] journey to a marvelously fulfilling life.

I desire to show every person that they are worth living an amazing life, and that it is absolutely okay to be sad. It is okay to be human. It's also okay to be a dog, and in fact I probably will like you more as the latter.

After dancing on death's shoulders at 60 pounds on my tall frame, I took my life into my own hands and I now look to my body as a vehicle for my soul--an instrument to help me live my dreams.

I aspire to create a more accurate awareness of what eating disorders really are--to end negative stigmas and to help those that are suffering. So many suffer in silence, and I used to be one of those people. 

I currently manage my anxiety, depression, somatic disorder and PTSD on a daily basis. It's a lot! But it's my reality. And there's no sense in running from it, right? Right.

I started my blog in June 2014 to document my recovery from an atypical type of ARFID. (For the duration of my ED, I, and others, assumed that I struggled with anorexia. Later I learned that it was ARFID.) I did not fully commit to recovery until December 2014 after my heart nearly stopped beating.

My blog then evolved into a space where I shared my feelings, thoughts, opinions...most importantly, it connected me with so many amazing people that I consider my best friends. I have been connected with companies that I never imagined working with, and I've been able to help so many people that otherwise wouldn't have heard my message. I've written for Thought Catalog, The Huffington Post, and various other online publications, but my favorite is when I journal--just for myself.

I have learned through blogging that I desire to help as many people as I can. I desire to be a light and a distraction from the hell that is recovery from an eating disorder, mental illness, or even just a bad day.

In December 2015 I received my Bachelor of Arts in Journalism and Communications. After graduating, I moved home to California where I grew up. I spent all of 2016 in and out of hospitals dealing with medical complications from my eating disorder and stress, and now I can finally say I'm weight restored and feeling so much better! (I've almost doubled my weight.)

My posts range from self-love inducing, mental illness hating, to sarcastic and hilarious--so please, stick around while I make a fool of myself and maybe you'll be inspired along the way.